silentsandlight

the funny thing about this blog, is that i only open it when im in a place in between sanity and demented depression. i guess this blog is solely designed to take in all the blow that i have to let out. in a way, this blog is my shock-absorber. Yes, my dear onld shock-absorber from all the ranting that i gotta let out. ranting from my dear old hurting and insecurities. 

Yes, i am hurt, i am insecure. i fell pain. im hurting from the bludgeoning that im taking from other people and yours truly. im insecure coz i know deep inside im only worth what you see me good for. I've been hearing myself lately talking to myslef and repeating either: "Kabit na naman ako" or "Im only good for talent" and the ever so classic "may kulang pa ba?". 

Yes World! Take it in! take it all in. take my ranting and my bludgeoning from this self-imposed exile and silent scream. the only thing keeping me away from a blade, the 52nd floor, or Manila Bay breakwaters is my nieces smile. 

Maybe thats what i should just focus on. maybe thats what i just need to look at to and do ---making my niece smile, making people smile. then maybe, just maybe, people (specially you) would see me for my worth and not what i can just do.