This is how I substitute Reality

silentsandlight

This used to be a comment i posted in his cyber page. now every single word in this small phrase meant nothing now:

"He brings out the kid in me" ---this is the line that has been clinging over my head for the past few days. its like another 'feel-good mantra' or 'calm-me-down wussa' spun like a broken vinyl; left to remind me that there's still innocence and honesty in this world. yes, you remind me of chiklhood (of naivete, innocence, honesty and everything care-free in between). you remind me of trust, and of fidelity ---something I've lost hope on a long time ago. you remind me all of this when i look into your eyes. your eyes mixed with longing, happy smiles, and pure honesty ---those eyes i fell inlove with. i love it when i look in your eyes. it calms me and at the same time it makes me feel small. it calms me coz i know that i've found a person worth looking straight in the eyes and say that 'your pure' but at the same time makes me fee small coz i know that i used to have those eyes (i used to, not anymore). Thank you for always making me feel special. =) You're the last person i'd ever wanna hurt (seriously). this past few days has been an epiphany in a form of you. you just dont know how thankful i am that i met you. i may not express it all the time (i've recently found it hard to express my true feelings freely) but you're very special, and you deserve to be treated as one. thank you Guilly Boy, I Love You. ---AISHITERU AIJI. (dated: 10/27/2008)

and his reply to me feels empty now (just another empty set of words):

celebi..... gilboy ko pala.... hehe... nkow di ako magsasawa na makasama ka...khit pareho pa taung bad breathe evrytime na gumigcing tau....kiss pa din kita.... lalong di ako magsasawang lagyan ng notes yang mga gamit mo para alam kong mauus lagi ang asawa ko.... paxencia na...tinagalog ko na lang kc bka pag ininglish ko...bka mawrong grammar pa ako tapos icorrect mo pa ako...hehe...peace...nipapatawa ka lang ni guillyboy... sana di ka sakin magsawa magpaxencia khit madalas me nagtatantraums...korek ba spelling ko???hehe...sana di ka magsawa khit unti-unti na akong tumataba...kahit minsan lier ako...sori...sana di ka magsawa khit dumdami na pimples ko.... andito lang ako lagi sa tabi mo kasama ni reddy and reddy ursa... MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!!!!!!=P (dated: 12/24/2008 06:29 PM)

its sad that everything started from nothign and ended in nothing.